I've been spring cleaning and came across one of my many journals from way, way back. Is the Old Christine evident? Yes - the Old Christine crushed on boys like mad - while at church - and went into a great deal of description of what she wore to Sunday night services. If I'm not mistaken, the service that I describe below is the night we watched The Cross and the Switchblade. Sunday mornings - only dresses. But Sunday nights - watch out! And you may be thinking - how low can she go - copying her own treasured journal entries that she held sacred and created curses for those who might read them? If you haven't noticed yet, this site demonstrates that I have no/few sacred cows - and though I may have thought I was one - I was not sacred - nor was I a cow. Enough ado about nothing... Enjoy.
-names mutilated to protect identities-
Aug. 31, 198* {11:11PM}
Dear Journal,
(Blah,blah,blah ... irrelevant... okay – relevant…)
Now this thing I tould you about Ernest was when I had a crush on him. Crushes never last to long and this one didn’t either. Now I have a crush on 2 boys in a way. Let me tell you how it happened.
It all started when we stopped going to the church with NoNames. Now we go the Kinky Conference Baptist Church. The first Sunday we went there the guy who handed out the bulletins was the one I had a crush on first. His name is Such&Such and really cute. He’s going into the 11th grade, so he’s probably to old for me because I’m going into the 7th grade. Last Sunday night (yesterday) I wore a new sweat shirt and my new shoes. The sweatshirt is yellow and red and white and says Advanced in Class then in a sort of coat of arms it says University of Paris, then on the other side it says Sarrbone in bold print. Its the kind of shirt thats in style. Then I wore blue jeans that are baggey. The sweat shirt is baggy too. Then I wore tan socks rolled up over the bottom of my jeans. The white shoes were a kind of hightop that’s in style. The night before mom gave me a perm and now my hairs in style in a way. More than before. I wore the powder blush for first time in public. The colors are these…
(pink peachy flesh colors)
It’s called Perfect Peach. Then on my lips I wore lip gloss called Kissing Stick. It makes your lips shine like they’re wet and stay like that for abut an hour.
I looked actually pretty. Anyway, Such&Such during the service kept on looking directly at me for as long as he dared. On both sides of him sat two boys his age or older that looked at me to a lot espialchly the one on his right. I know they were looking at me and I’m not liaing. I think they thouhgt that I was maybe a year or to older then I am. Not that I’m that fat that I’m inbetween, actually I weight ???lb. and thats is quite a lot. I have been losing some pounds though. Mom says we’re bigboned. Such&Such, knows that I’m going into 7th though because he has a cousin named Crabby and a sister named Sorry that are the same age as me. I found out yesterday that I’m pretty in a quiet way. Such&Such + the 2 other guys probably have different girlfriends but maybe not. The other boy I have a crush on is So&So. All these guys are from a different church in Kinky exept Such&Such. So&So is probably in the 8th or 9th grade maybe 10th. Crabby says that he’s her boyfriend but I don’t know if he likes her. Such&Such and So&So are both cute but Such&Such is the kind I like the best.
If you want to put it this why Such&Such is innocently cute with sandy color hair and red cheeks and dimples. Another thing that makes him cute is the way he moves in sort of clumsy way. So&So is more a different cute then Such&Such. Hes paler and has almost white hair but is cute, but not as much as Such&Such. Such&Such’s grin is really cute. Actually he’s everything I’ve dreamed of. I don’t know if I’m in love or not but I have a feeling all its every going to be is a crush but I wish it wouldn’t be because I don’t see why the boys fall for the girls that are ugller then me but paint there faces to make them look cute. I would just love it if he even showed more interest in me and not any painted girl. He’s kind of quiet and innocent.
If you want to put it this why Such&Such is innocently cute with sandy color hair and red cheeks and dimples. Another thing that makes him cute is the way he moves in sort of clumsy way. So&So is more a different cute then Such&Such. Hes paler and has almost white hair but is cute, but not as much as Such&Such. Such&Such’s grin is really cute. Actually he’s everything I’ve dreamed of. I don’t know if I’m in love or not but I have a feeling all its every going to be is a crush but I wish it wouldn’t be because I don’t see why the boys fall for the girls that are ugller then me but paint there faces to make them look cute. I would just love it if he even showed more interest in me and not any painted girl. He’s kind of quiet and innocent.
As much as I’ve seen of the Kinky boys, the Honky (*hometown) boys are dogs. But Such&Such is still cutest of all the boys I ever seen.
(…irrelevant…)
At 12:43 I think its time to quit. I write as soon again as I feel up to it.
(…irrelevant...)
Such&Such reminds me of the ‘50s + early ‘60s guys. He is one crush I don’t know when I’ll get over him.
Christine Realname.
PS. Anyone who reads this other than me, woe be unto you.
_______
Dear Sunday Reader,
I have realized that I have not given my conversion story -and this journal entry above, believe it or not, is after the fact - so that is on my agenda. But yes - I may stoop this low again - or may not - but damn - I didn't know how to shut up then - and don't know how to shut up now.
Have a lovely...
Xtine.

4 comments:
The Cross And The Switchblade! I bet they made you watch A Thief In The Night, too!
Its stunning to me how much our church backgrounds are the same - like we belong to this secret club no one in my real life even knows about!
Do us a favor and Don't shut up.
Kriss
Christine, I have something special for you at my blog. It had your name all over it.
:)
Indeed, I have had many a crush.
-Ruby Leigh from Meet-up tonight
rubyleigh.blogspot.com
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